Thursday, July 13, 2006

ART & FEAR, or courting that sick feeling in the pit of your stomach for fun...

My apologies to David Bayles and Ted Orland , who wrote a book of the same name, a very good book, as I recall: I recommended it to many a student. So this morning, I was working on this part of the painting

and listening to "In the Deep" by Bird York (that amazingly haunting song at the end of the film "Crash"), when it occured to me that I did not know what I was going to do with this area of the painting, that I had no idea how I was going to make it work, only that I had to do it now. Where else have I experienced this feeling? Then I realized... I am a thrillseeker: I especially love being up in the air. I have taken flying lessons, jumped out of airplanes, rode in gliders, the blimp (thanks, Sam), and helicopters, all to get that feeling in my stomach, that mixture of excitement and fear. I wonder if it has lead me to the kind of paintings that I make, where the painting is almost finished, then you put down a glaze over the whole thing, and if it's wrong, the painting is dead. (I know that other artists reach similar moments of anxiety in their work, heck, that's all Francis Bacon talked about in the last book I read.) I got into the car with Radley, did a drive-through (Burlington has ONE [new!] Starbuck's) and went to get a Java chip frappacino to quell my anxiety. I sat drinking my... well, let's face it, it's a milkshake with bits of chocolate it, and stared at my painting, then picked out my "Beautiful/Mellow" Playlist and began:

The next layer comes tomorrow. The fun part of today was doing leaf highlights... after all the drudgery, I finally get to make them "pop" a bit, and some space begins to happen.

Playlist from today, where most moments were scary, and I needed "the big guns", my most beautiful, inspirational music to help me pull it off:
Gypsy Suzanne Vega
Tori Amos - Losing My Religion (REM Cover) Tori Amos
Stop Your Fussin' Toni Childs
In The Deep - Bird York
Today Has Been Okay Emiliana Torrini
In Your Eyes (long version, live) Peter Gabriel w/Paula Cole
Carmen Paula Cole
this womans work kate bush
Cowboy Junkies - Sweet Jane
Ribbon in the Sky Stevie Wonder
Cowboy Junkies - Wild Horses
With Arms Wide Open Creed
I'm Still Here Tom Waits
Nobody's Crying Reprise Patty Griffin
Sweetness Follows REM
Walking in Memphis Marc Cohen
You Are Not Alone Patty Griffin
Taking My Chances/One Big Love (Acoustic) Patty Griffin
Landslide Tori Amos
Forgiven Deb Talan
Your Ghost Kristen Hirsh
Wrapped Around Your Finger (live Police cover) Tori Amos
Into Dust Mazzy Star
Enough To Be On Your Way James Taylor
Copperline James Taylor
Kite Song Patty Griffin
I'll Be Home Randy Newman
Man of the Hour Pearl Jam
The Ballad of Mary Magdalen Cry Cry Cry
Why Worry Dire Straits
Breathe Me Sia
Still I long for your kiss Nancy Griffith & Lucinda Willi
After All Dar Williams
Tori Amos & Tool - Amazing Grace
Cry, Cry Mazzy Star
Every Little Bit (acoustic) Patty Griffin
The Luckiest Ben Folds
Dave Matthews Band - Crash Into Me
It's a Hard Life Nancy Griffith
U2 - With or Without You
Monster In Law Soundtrack - - Dar Williams - The Beauty Of The Rain
Sweetest Thing U2
U2 - One
Lucinda Williams - A Hard Rain's Gonna Fall
Joy Lucinda Williams
Rock and Bird Cowboy Junkies
Sarah Mcglaughlin- I will remember you
I Want You To Hurt Like I Do 4:06 Randy Newman
I Think It's Going To Rain Today 2:51 Judy Collins
plasir d'amour 4:48 Judy Collins
April Come She Will 2:37 Simon And Garfunkel
Someday Soon Judy Collins
Nightswimming (feat. Michael Stipe) Coldplay
Long Ago And Far Away Joni Mitchell & James Taylor
Why Not Smile R.E.M.
Talk Coldplay
She Talks To Angels (Acoustic) Black Crowes
u2 - One (Acoustic with Michael Stipe)
Don't Think Twice It's Alright Indigo Girls w Joan Baez
All the little horses Judy collins
Speed Of Sound Coldplay
Moses (Full Band Live) Coldplay
Beautiful World Coldplay
The Scientist Coldplay
Fix You Coldplay
Joni Mitchell - For Free
Wonderwall Cat Power
Night Ride Home Joni Mitchell
The Eagle And The Hawk John Denver
Suzanne Leonard Cohen
The Greatest Discovery Elton John
Joni Mitchell - Urge for going Joni Mitchell
Will The Circle Be Unbroken June Carter Cash
Mazzy Star - Fade Into You

If you are not a downloader and want some of these, let me know. I just bought 500 CD mailers for my next art mailing, I should have 100-200 left, and I am making CDs of The Most Beautiful Music I Know for xmas presents, I'll put you on the list. As most of my old sources for new music are busy being grownups now, I have found a great site for finding new music.
I will take suggestions as well.

And your prize for reading to the bottom of the blog: I know the Saatchi registry was a mixed bag, but here's one with good art.... The Irving Sandler Artist's File. Worth an hour of your time, and it is great perusing other people's work, as well. 10:45 p.m. Time to work on July 15-30th grants. Tomorrow is the infamous opening with the fiber art glove!!!


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Seeing as we in the P-household are never too busy or old for new music, boy do I have some mix cds for YOU!

Email me your NC address again!

2:10 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

no, not creed :/

4:37 PM  
Blogger Kate said...

I don't really know creed, except for that one song... bad?

6:07 PM  
Blogger Kate said...

...and these are all songs of a certain tone, for a certain purpose. There are other playlists for other purposes....

6:09 PM  
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8:20 AM  

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